But, I won’t clean them.
At least, not today.
On these windows, likely from miles away, one could see tiny handprints. Tiny smears and smudges from Summer’s sticky hands. Nose prints from Baylor’s cold, wet nose. And knee prints from me continually propping open the door to let them outside. As gross as it may seem to most people, it tells a story.
A story of anticipation.
Summer is a daddy’s girl through and through. Every day, she wakes up and insists on seeing him. Yesterday, when I went in to get her after nap, she promptly asked me to leave declaring that she wanted her dada. Earlier today, she came to tell me she had a messy diaper and insisted her dada come home from work to change it.
Her adoration of him is striking, lovely, beautiful, and heartwarming.
When she hears that her daddy is coming home, it is not uncommon for her to run upstairs to get her bow, jewelry, and favorite tutu. She will ask me to dress her up for his arrival. She will then stand by front door with her hands pressed against the cold glass of the storm door and await his homecoming.
It is a precious sight. One I never want to forget.
So much of this dynamic is a mirroring of how our relationship with God can and should be.
I love her anticipation of his coming home and of the fun they will have together.
I love how she expects the best from his presence. She expects him to pull into that driveway with pure delight in her plastered all over his handsome face. She expects him to tell her how pretty she is and for him to marvel at that day’s rock or bug collection.
I love that she can, and does, expect all of this this.
The glass sliding doors to the backyard reflect the same sort of anticipation.
To her, the backyard holds endless adventures of gardening, bug and rock collecting, fetch with Baylor, bubbles, and beyond.
As soon as she is excused from the table, she toddles up to the door begging to go outside. She will press her messy hands and face up against the glass until I come and open the door for her. She then squeals and jolts into the backyard with abandon.
With a pure expectation of adventure and fun.
I am loving the messy glass and the story it tells these days.
I want my relationship with Father God to mirror this same sweet love. I want my heart to beam with the same anticipation of God’s goodness. Of my expectation of His presence, His pleasure in me, and the fun adventures He has for me every day.
I want people to peer through the windows of my life and see evidence of anticipation of God’s presence and adventures the same way people see handprints of anticipation all over my front door.
Sometimes it can be difficult for us to believe that God’s pleasure in us follows the same pattern as Ryan’s adoration of Summer. It can be challenging to see how we could expect Him to have good for us or for Him to delight in us when our life feels so messy.
But, the Truth is, He loves us with abandon. Nothing we can or will ever do will separate us from this powerful love. We can expect good. We can expect to be delighted in. And we can expect life to be a beautiful adventure as we walk hand in hand with Him.
Romans 8:31-39 The Message
“So, what do you think? With God on our side like this, how can we lose? If God didn’t hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else he wouldn’t gladly and freely do for us? And who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God’s chosen? Who would dare even to point a finger? The One who died for us—who was raised to life for us!—is in the presence of God at this very moment sticking up for us. Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ’s love for us? There is no way! Not trouble, not hard times, not hatred, not hunger, not homelessness, not bullying threats, not backstabbing, not even the worst sins listed in Scripture:
They kill us in cold blood because they hate you.
We’re sitting ducks; they pick us off one by one.
None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. I’m absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us.”